Happy Birthday, TAPF!

To my dearest one TAPF,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! 

Lol i dont know how is your reaction right now after "the gifts" i gave to you. (omg i hope i could saw it right now)

Btw, firstly i want to say something. Dont overthink about our problem, about how i mad at you.

Well yeah, i mad at you at that situation. Its all because i was so tired and it was my second period's day. As you know, the day before, my shift was closing, and the day after is opening, so i didnt sleep well.

And jreng jrengg, the hectic day was came! Before that, i had a headache because so much baloons exploded. And in those situation and others, someone yelled at me when I accidentally hit her. Oh yeah.

I was too angry so i didnt want to saw you. But Thank God after that hectic moment, kak Rommy told me to break. Without a second thought, i said yes. 

At the break time i think about it over and over again. And, it was nobody fault, its because we were so hectic so our emotional stability didnt work properly. Actually i cried at the break time, but then kak Rommy came and i wanted to hide it. I was too shy to cry in front of someone. Oh btw i cried because i was too angry to the situation and i was too scared to face you lol.

Kak Rommy came and said "sabar ya la, tadi Acinya juga udh minta maaf juga kok ke yang lain." And after he said it, something evil came to my mind! "Oh, gimana kalau ini jadiin alesan buat surprise aja, kak!"

I just need around 2 seconds until i heard "oh bener juga la, boleh tuh!" lol

And, we made some plan, i did some act and he was in charge in ngomporin. I asked kak Irfan and others too~

And yeah, it worked. You said sorry, and I acted, and you cried more and felt guilty. (I actually saw you cried when you worked in front of the computer, really, i want to hug you. sooorrryyyy!!)

And the damn thing is the day after. The situation when i at the cashier and......minus. And sht, i need your help. On the other hand i need to act like i still mad at you. I actually so confused, and i really want to  gave up. But theeennn you were so nice to me, so i thought you still felt guilty about what happened. So, i continued my act lol!

Oh btw, after i arrived at home, i found a strawberry milk on my bag. Thankyouu! i just realized it after i opened my bag at home.  Oh and the letter too! Thankyou for giving me a hint to me for continue the drama until now!!! lol!

Well, thats all i think. So i just want you to know, dont feel guilty anymore, dont feel or think anything around me, just let it be. 90% of it was fake. lol! (eh, what i posted on WA too! i dont know why but the timing was so right! On that day Lin* shopping posted something about anger and zodiak, so i posted it anyway!)

As you said, "..hope we are not falling apart bcs of this.." I am the one who want to apologize for making you feel so much guilty. I heard from kak Rommy that you afraid that i was still mad at you when i actually dont. 

Sorry for wasting your time to think about this sooo much! Its only an act, really! I know you too well so when it happened, i know you really really didnt mean it. I was on my mood-swing and you had a headache because so much request. I know it, really.

Well, its all for what happened. 

Back to my plan, i wish you all the best for the birthday! Sorry for making you feel confused, angry, or teary, or anything. I hope what happened to us give us so much strength to our friendship. Couldnt describe it on words, but i dont think that you are the one who receive a gift, because your existence is one of God's gift for my life. I am so thankful for each moments i spent with you.

Thankyou for always caring me, for always right beside me when i need you.

Thankyou for teaching me how to be a woman when im only a girl.

Thankyou for always listening to me when i need someone to tell a story.

Thankyou for sharing your happiness and sadness to me eventough all i can do is sit and doing  nothing.

And so much thankyou that i cant say it one by one, I am so thankful for your existence as my bestfriend, my sister, my best of the best!

I hope you enjoy your special day today! I wish so much happiness and joyful around you for today, tomorrow, and forever. May God bless you even moreee!

With a never ending friendship love,

PCM